Prelude

Just For Play

I've already played with the idea

And everything I intend to have my way

My goal is to completely satisfy you

But don't be afraid-- it just for play

I envision your nakedness stepping out of the shower

Your shoulders glisten as you are dripping wet

Just the idea written on this very page

Makes my heart ache and my legs rest-less

Staring into my eyes, you reach for the oil for your body

Just watching the movements in every action made

Cause my inner walls to throb as if you were already inside me

I motion with my hands, and mouth the words 'No.'

My eyes drink in your body's vast measure

I grab the bottle, advising you that I shall do the honors

For doing you this favor will bring me much pleasure...

You growl a low mmmmmmm…

You lick your lips-- dayum your smile is so sexy

I know I have influenced your mind

So now I need to remind your body to never forget me

I massage your scalp, upper body and toward lower regions

Bathing your skin lightly, I renew you with oil

I am loving the way you still blush at my gentle touch

Though I can see the south is on the up-rise in turmoil

You lightly kiss my cheek, give my lobe an intoxicating lick

All promises of upstanding behavior discarded—that plan has been foiled

Your hand's fall lightly upon mine as I continue your body's work

You smile that sexy-- tryna cheat these rules of the game

Teasing licks here and there as you begin to lift the lace edges of my shirt

I remove the thin barrier shielding your eyes from what you desire to see

I kiss your forehead to remind you--baby look, but don't touch…

Then lie you down to rub nourishment into your feet

I rise to stand before you

In one swift motion you sit up and lie back fast with me crashing on top

My mind is saying "...no, not yet..."

But my body cries "...yes...please, don't stop..."

My mouth is covered by the fervor of your lips--

Damn the butterflies in my stomach left from the touch of your tongue

I kiss a trail down your chest

Lick your nipples first this... then that one...

Once reaching the top of a trail so happy, beginning with your navel

You moan deep despite yourself in anticipation

Your once calm composure is becoming undone-- completely unstable

From the rest of this scenario I shall refrain to say

After all, baby, it’s just for play anyway...

Queen Poetess B

BLF 5/11/09 ©

Lies!

"...You're so vain...You probably think this song is about you...You're so vain...I'll bet you think this song is about you, Don't you? Don't you?..." --You're So Vain by Carly Simon

It is.

Stranger

Sitting in front of the TV, I watch but cannot see
How you in your Alpha Glory, can straight up lie to me
You laugh off my concerns, scoff at my feelings to qualm my fears
You look me in the eye to justify as you give your alibi
About how I should trust after all these years
I watch as you go into your closet for you have several options
Watching you remove your mask for your evening wear
All prior plans with me so easily forgotten
How can you discard my very specific concern
And go and DO exactly what you just denied?!
How can you pride yourself on your word
Only to turn right around and fuckin' lie?
You profess to be TRUTH and HONESTY
But that's a front-- behind you want to hide
I am sure again to be made the fool when I put the question to you
But I want you to know- I KNOW WHAT YOU KNOW--
Check the time-- its all in the proof
My once fragile heart has now been broken
The shards lay haphazard upon the floor
I think I truly for the first time considered
If you even love me anymore...
My heart sinks in stress, as I blink away tears
Nothing can be returned after all of these years
No outlet available to be relieved--
No open ears for my fears to be believed!
Trapped in four walls, tellin me all this is just bullshit I conceived!
All I wanted to do was be your Queen--
Birth your seed!
Now, I find, my heart-- my mind-- my soul are all in need
I thought with you and my God all things could be achieved
I've had on the goggles too long
But they've been removed, so now I see
That you don't give a shit about how I feel
All-the-while subjecting me to deep scrutiny
Made me question who I was, re-evaluating important things
When I ain't nothin but a single feather on an Eagle's outstretched wings
I will look you in the eye and later recall how calm your demeanor will be
And will again be in awe of how you could straight up lie to me
I know you ain't perfect-- neither am I, but damn of all things
Of this in particular you always made me feel securely
And oh how I wonder what else could have been done
When you return at five AM from your 'out-wit-fellaz' fun
I look back and cannot tell how I got here, but maybe time has dulled my senses
I just don't want to become cold-hearted and hold too much resentment
Honest chances are hard to have as you play Pussy behind all your lies
Your avoidance behavior has made it impossible to be repaired
So I am resolved to say fuck it-- Imma leave your punk ass-- under there
Just know that you have hurt me, for only you could have inflicted this pain
And I don't know if I will be able to look at you the same
You left a bad taste-- I have so much disdain
From saying the name-- I shall refrain
But I KNOW WHAT YOU KNOW with every cell in my brain
Thought you truer than that
But you know how the saying goes
Nice guys finish last, but its bout the path I chose
I just wish you could tell me why you chose to lie
When you want everyone to believe you're such a stand-up guy
My back you go behind
While lying to my face
But I now realize that my care does not come in first place
I look to the heavens for a sign-- an answer -- an angel
To remove this pure anger
Cuz I went to bed with the Man I knew
But woke up with a lying ass stranger.

Queen Poetess B

(BLF © 5/9/09)

Hunger Pains

I stuff my mouth with physical food
Whilst my mind continues to starve
I consume nourishment for the physical
But the treatment for the cerebral
has been set in the distance off too far
I am content with money spent
Besides, this mutated water eases my pain
Helps me hide from the monster
Lurking within the shadows of my brain
Damn-- I must be insane
Can never be the same
No one takes this shit here serious
Hunger fed by my pen
My lyricism leaves me delirious
Fantasy is merely frivolous
Leaving behind the residue of HOPE
I kick that bitch in the fucking face
Shove Hope-Bull-Shit down her throat
Come on-- you gotta know
Deep down inside you feelin' me tho
Knowing every inch of a particular surface
Can't raise me from this new low
So I eat this physical bull-shit
placed upon my expensive plate
Cuz the nagging hunger
I poorly attempt to sate
Kindly, I request the bill
I must depart before I overindulge
The waiter hands me the leather leaflet
The balance due, is still Love...

Queen Poetess B 5/5/09 ©

Love Due

raw today yall... what a treat... fuck you, pay me, nigga...

(Ring-ring…ring-ring…)

‘Hello?’

…Hello. This is Love calling
I’m glad to finally reach you at home
I’ve been trying to reach you for some time now
You’ve been unavailable for much too long
I can see you have been behind
The last few cycles of billing
And with the late fee charges stacked against you
I hope, today, I find you willing
And cooperative to set up a payment plan
Get your payments up to date
We’ll help you take care of the ‘out-standing’
We want to help improve your credit rate
I would love to remove the penalties
That got your bill so sky-high
But your balance has been rolling
So in this bed, you’ll have to lie
We will require the ‘First Month’s Love’
To be paid in 'Straight-Stroke Cash'
We don’t accept personal dick-checks and promises
So we’ll have to tax it from dat ass
You get no ‘Shit-talkin Credit’
You’re only as good as the Love Duckets placed on the table
Don’t forget your lick interest every due date
You’ll find it’s wet measure just below the navel
Also, the ‘Love Fetish Fee’
A new charge added during the Congress of Love’s Session
Hey, we had to come up with a way
To mitigate Love lost during this recession
So, we now require that each finger be dipped in the hotness of your mouth
Finger-tips baptized with your tongue
Don’t forget the pedicured toes
Lick each one—one by one by one…
I have to sign you up for automatic payments
A schedule of deductions from your Love account
You gotta be on time and on point
Much consideration must be given when Love is owed in this amount
Better check your outside expenditures
There will be no frivolous Love available to be spent by you
And you must abide by this arrangement
Attribute that to the balance of outstanding Love due
So, I’ll lay back on this bed of silk chocolate
I know your Love pocket is getting ready to be pulled
But you won’t be done with my drowning ledger
Until that balance is paid in full…

Queen Poetess B 5/4/09 ©