On My Mind

got a lot on my mind
but ain’t got the time
so I sit at my desk
while I stand on my grind
much has been given and much been lost
never knew the price
so came up short on payin' the cost
but I'm Boss--
and I place you under my umbrella
I promise to help ‘em for now and forever
I give and give tell I can't no more
no one cares about the things without I'll go?
sacrifice my future
sacrifice the way I live
and when it’s all tapped out
they ask what more I can give
God forbid-- don't ask me how I'm livin'
I can’t tell you ‘bout the borrowed dollaz I'm spendin'
tell her what she isn’t because who cares what she is?
I say I am, no I AM, but they know not what she is
my struggles have made me from their dreams digress
but through it all I still make forward progress
but-- I gotta say...
I got a lot on my mind
and I'd tell you what I was thinkin’,
but Queen just don't have the time...

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soeffoff, yeah?

...mixedthoughtoetry...

punctuation is important
state of mind in this mind state
i wait not wanting to make haste
but the decisions
decisions make me check-out
and all the things i should say to you
just wont come out
inside i shout
i scream and i kick
throw my hands in the air
wanna be thru with this shit
thru wit all of it
bad avoidance behavior
deal with it all
or crumble under the weight of it all later
man can u just do me one favor
give me a clue to my greatness
and the key to controlling the stress
im supposed to be more now
but now im feeling like less
normal
whats normal because my feet havent touched the ground yet
but treated as such
such majestic turmoil i still parade the face of calm
counting on work for distraction
but im stuck in the eye of my storm
resume the usual duties
resume the daily tasks
resume the usual bullshit
gotta wear that ill fit mask
today i hope my disguise will pass
maybe they wont see me if i walk real fast
maybe i can do what i need invisibly
so that i refrain from telling them all to just kiss my ass
so
instead i will say

go fuck off Yeah.

Queen Poetess B Copyright © 2009